Conquering The Divide

I close my eyes. Take a deep breath. Turn around. And... Walk away. I wonder, How many times in my life I failed to do just that? Turn from the direction I'm heading To take another path. With...

Lost In Thought

I've been thinking about writing. Just thinking that is. Each morning determined. By noon, determination fades. By evening, it's completely gone away. I console myself with, "Tomorrow is the day..."...

Crumbling To Pieces

Time slips away from me - as it too often does. I was reminded yesterday that I haven't posted in almost one month! I can list reasons, excuses... Many valid & strong. In the end, I've been caught up in a...

Deceiving Ourselves

I spend about 70-80% of my time stressed & overwhelmed. (An estimate, of course. Since despite my long term OCD tendencies it never occurred to me before this moment to track the time I spend in negative st...

A Great Divide

I have a love/hate relationship with change. On one hand... Every part of me craves it. I search for it like a drowning man for water. Because I know without it, no growth or progress takes place, Which l...

Not So Bright Ideas

I try things all the time that fail. Should I not already keep my failures close in mind, I have my mother to remind me of all the odd ball things I've bought, failed to use and/or tried. Thankfully, some...

Time Away

My computer tucked away for months at end... I pull it out only to find dust covering it's lid. The spring months flew. Now, summer almost gone. I've been living in this otherworldly dimension where times mo...

Cleaning Up

I wake this morning feeling fine. Within minutes of getting up, a growing anxiety & overwhelm build in my body. Consuming my mind. I look around at all I have to do. All that has been left undone. Lists ...

One Moment At A Time

24 hours after my last post, I became ill. Fatigue hit. Aches. My skin tender to the touch. Chills. In bed (or, more accurately... on the floor) with a high fever, I stayed. For days. Falling in & out of ...

Waiting For Things To Settle

I've been away. Not physically. Mentally. I'm in an unexpected flux. Destabilized. Floating. Unsure where I will land. Whether I'll continue to go up. Or... Tumble back down. With nothing else to do, ...