A Year Of Change

Life In Hiding

Last year I had new exterior doors & windows put on the house. To prepare (for the window installation) I had to take all the blinds, shutters & curtains down. This one expensive & seemingly insignificant ex...

Bound

Journal Entry: January 9, 2017 I often feel like something's missing - something important. As if something is off, slightly wrong... I just don't know what it is. I know it's not a tangible thing. Like ...

Making A Choice

I hate (really hate) to be the melodramatic type. My natural tendency is to under (not over) emphasize. But sometimes in life you get to a point where you realize either something needs to happen soon - O...

A Strained Relationship

I have a tenuous relationship with time. I value it. I do everything I can to create more of it. Yet... No matter what I do, I never have enough. As much as I try to be aware... To hold onto it... Sti...

Lost Time

My Mother was with my father when he died. It was late evening. He asked for her help getting to the bathroom. (Something he'd never done before.) He took a few steps, collapsed and said, "I'm dying." ...

A Decisive Moment

One day I'm going to write a book, The 101 Ways My Mother Unintentionally Traumatized Me. (To be published posthumously.) Mother has her own special way of doing it. And, she's been doing it all my life...

Mixed Signals

I put special emphasis on beginnings. The beginning of the year, the month, the day... Each holds special meaning to me. Because each represents possibilities. Potential waiting to be birthed. So it was p...

Starting The Year With A Bang

I never wanted to be one of those people who wait until some personal disaster strikes to make much needed, long overdue change. As of 10:28pm last night, I became that person. First let me be clear... I...