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Erasing Time

Yesterday, I slept. For almost 24 hours straight... A word of advice. If you're trying to remain strong... To resist temptations (of any kind, especially those rooted in the past)... Don't drink! Tuesday ...

A Big Mistake

In approximately 4 hours, I'm going to make a mistake. A big one. I don't like traveling back to the past. (Yet, I'm about to do just that.) The past holds nothing for me except faint echoes & whispers o...

An Altered State

My tenuous grip on time continues to slip. I try to hold on. Not to time itself. Just the concept & awareness of it. Yet, with each passing day I continue to fail. I wonder sometimes... Does it really matter...

Desiring Retreat

I've been living in an ever increasing state of overwhelm over the past couple of weeks. In the beginning, I did okay. As the stress mounted & continued, I got worn down. Now... I'm a frazzled mess. My mind...

Waiting For Things To Quiet Down

My mind, For all it's capable of at the moment, Is singularly focused On preparing myself physically & mentally For Mother's move, Which happens Tuesday. Although only a small portion Of her stuff is...

Be Careful What You Wish For

In an unfortunate (And yet somehow fortunate) Twist of events, I find that I may not have to Drive back to Houston before Mother moves. Yesterday, I had a little crisis of my own. Grumbling as I came down...

Further Explanation

I got a question last night Asking me what exactly happened That upset me so much During the meeting/dinner I mentioned yesterday. Nothing bad happened. It was pleasant. I like him. I've always liked hi...

Lost In Thought

For the past four days I've written. Only to reread what I write And decide not to post. First, I will say... This is the very thing I don't want to do. Because my goal is to be Completely raw & cand...

Sweet Dreams

I woke at 3:30am. Looked at the time. Cringed. Squeezed shut my eyes. Today I was supposed to drive back to Houston. To help Mother pack. The last thing I wanted to do - Made more inconvenient & mise...

Drowning

I want to go in one direction. However... Life at the moment Seems determined to take me In another. Instead of fighting it, Stressing about What is hopefully A temporary detour, For this month (at lea...