Journal

Waiting For Things To Quiet Down

My mind, For all it's capable of at the moment, Is singularly focused On preparing myself physically & mentally For Mother's move, Which happens Tuesday. Although only a small portion Of her stuff is...

Be Careful What You Wish For

In an unfortunate (And yet somehow fortunate) Twist of events, I find that I may not have to Drive back to Houston before Mother moves. Yesterday, I had a little crisis of my own. Grumbling as I came down...

Further Explanation

I got a question last night Asking me what exactly happened That upset me so much During the meeting/dinner I mentioned yesterday. Nothing bad happened. It was pleasant. I like him. I've always liked hi...

Lost In Thought

For the past four days I've written. Only to reread what I write And decide not to post. First, I will say... This is the very thing I don't want to do. Because my goal is to be Completely raw & cand...

Sweet Dreams

I woke at 3:30am. Looked at the time. Cringed. Squeezed shut my eyes. Today I was supposed to drive back to Houston. To help Mother pack. The last thing I wanted to do - Made more inconvenient & mise...

Drowning

I want to go in one direction. However... Life at the moment Seems determined to take me In another. Instead of fighting it, Stressing about What is hopefully A temporary detour, For this month (at lea...

On The Verge Of A Personal Meltdown

Yesterday I woke around 5am - And made a snap decision To drive to Houston To help my mother Begin the packing process. The drive was nice & calm. Little traffic. Lots of trees. Cows leisurely grazi...

An Unexpected Move

I received some news yesterday That will (in one way or another) Affect my focus in the months to come. My mother is moving At the beginning of April. The problem... 1. She's in no way or shape prepared f...

Awakened Curiousity

I dragged myself out of bed this morning, Seriously questioning how the day would go. Exercise class, barely tolerable, Nearly killed me. At 10am, I was off for my allergy shots. Still lethargic & slow...

Keep Trying

I write. I read it. Satisfied, I relax. Only to come back to it. Reread. Dissatisfied I toss it in the trash. Papers strewn around me. Mountains of frustration. As I realize how quickly & easily I ...