Pause for Thought

Conquering The Divide

I close my eyes. Take a deep breath. Turn around. And... Walk away. I wonder, How many times in my life I failed to do just that? Turn from the direction I'm heading To take another path. With...

Deceiving Ourselves

I spend about 70-80% of my time stressed & overwhelmed. (An estimate, of course. Since despite my long term OCD tendencies it never occurred to me before this moment to track the time I spend in negative st...

Fighting Myself

I'm at a loss. Something floats through my mind. I try to grab hold. And, off it goes. I've waited for days. Hoping it'd pass. Yet each day ends up Proving to be like the last. I write, read, discard. ...

Elementary Truths

The most basic truths often elude me. As I sit struggling to write a thought pops into my head... This is my blog. I can write anything I'd like. Words flow to pen. Instead of accepting or welcomi...

Letting Things Go

I'm waiting. (Or, have been.) Knowing something is coming. Not knowing exactly what. The crisis with my mother (one that felt very much my own) ended. Now, I try to relax. I look around at all the things...

Small Pleasures

As much as big things (Right now, Mother) Upset me, Small, almost inconsequential moments Bring me joy & peace. A rabbit nestled in the bushes Eating his daily breakfast of greens. An intricate nes...

A New Approach To Life

About a year & a half ago It struck me I'd been approaching life The wrong way. I'd been struggling, Resisting, Pushing, Holding on, Trying to exert my will... All of which drained me And never go...

Regard For The Past

Many decisions in the past I regret. Each has however, Often in a roundabout way, Brought me to a better place. It's not the decisions themselves That burden or sadden me. More the necessity of them. To...

Trapped In Our Thoughts

Our minds are unruly things. We want to believe Their job is to help us. Instead... They distract us From truly experiencing each day. Living happens outside the mind. It consists of a myriad of sensatio...

For Better Or Worse

Life is an evolution. It's purpose growth. How we grow, Which lessons we choose to learn, Who we become... Rests in our hands. We can take our experiences, Use them to better ourselves. Or... Use them ...